So here's to dreams...

SO,
It’s been awhile…obviously. So, I’m just going to dive into what my life looks like since Bethel and hopefully it’ll make sense when I’m done. As most of you know, I went to Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry for the 2011/2012 year and it was amazing! I began to learn who I really was in the Lord, what I was capable of as His daughter, and how to move in the giftings He’s placed inside of me. And then it was back to the “real world.” Back to, “Oh, I have to find a real job now, pay bills, learn to manage my devotional time on my own, learn how to connect with people who have real lives and busy schedules all while trying to figure out how to put into action what I learned.” Needless to say, it’s been a roller coaster figuring out life over the last year. However, it’s been good.

I’ve been learning that although God has called me to be a “connector,” it takes effort and intentionality to share our lives with each other; though it’s well worth it to see how amazing people are when we take that time to be vulnerable. I’m learning that despite my probably poor effort to have daily quality time with the Lord, He’s still faithful – lucky for me that’s just His nature. I’m learning that life includes hard work and working hard, but God’s grace is so efficient and He’s given me true friendships and dreams that far outweigh a little hard work.

So what’s my dream? Well, I’m still working on it, but I know it has to do with worship – and for anyone that knows me, you probably already knew this, so be patient with me as I’m working it out! At the beginning of this year we started small groups at our church with a series of lessons called the “Chazown Experience.” Chazown means vision or purpose, as in “Where there is no vision, the people perish” (Prov. 29:18). I think it’s been more eye-opening for me leading the group than those who are actually in my group. After digging through our past, looking at core values and finding our spiritual gifts, my purpose statement (in somewhat of a ramble) is: bringing freedom to others through free and transparent worship, which is the overflow of intimacy with Daddy God. I’m still (and probably will be for some time) figuring out exactly what this looks like for me personally, although I know it all starts with my personal time of ministering to God's heart and allowing Him to minister to mine. I also know part of it looks like me stepping into another level of worship – prophetic worship, singing my own songs, releasing the songs that God sings over His people…and I’m sure much more.  So where the heck do I go from here?  Well, I took a step of faith and applied for Bethel’s School of Worship, which is two weeks during the summer – an intense time of worship and training Monday through Friday morning to night for two weeks! Sounds a little scary, yet awesome at the same time. Of course God already had all this planned out and I received my acceptance letter a couple weeks ago!

So what now? Now I’m working hard to save money and raise monetary and prayer support. I’m believing the Lord for $3,000 total to cover tuition, travel, and all expenses while there. So here’s what you can do – BELIEVE WITH ME! Trust that the Lord will provide all that I’m needing financially and also open me up to be as transparent and teachable as possible during BSW; I want to get all that I can while I’m there and unlock the fullness of the dreams God has placed in my heart. So, here’s to dreams – moving forward with all the failures and successes that come with them!